Me, I'm doing okay. Since I wrote my last email I've kind of changed my mind about the school thing. I'm probably actually going to try to move to CA within the next year and establish residency before I apply, so I'd be waiting one more year before going. I wish I knew more people in CA, it'd be a lot easier. Or I wish someone would move WITH me. But I'm probably going to be doing it all on my own.Damn it. I've been loooonely lately. It doesn't have that much to do with being here right now, just where I am in my life I guess. I'm getting tired of doing everything by myself. But I don't really have a choice I guess. I just feel like..fuck..I just have no luck. I HATE wanting a boyfriend. It goes against everything I believe in. I want to be completely self-sufficient, self-sustaining, self-everything. I can do this on my OWN, damn it. But at the same time, I don't know, I guess it's just a human need, wanting someone to be with. And I HATE it, because I don't HAVE anyone to be with, and don't see anyone popping up in the near future. I feel like there's something WRONG with me, like, people don't like me, or I'm not attractive, or whatever. Or is it just I haven't met the right person? But it seems like for most people there are lots of right persons, you would think one or another would pop up. Course, living on an island with 15 people half of whom are married limits my chances, but this has been the case for me for like the past two years or something. So I feel like, okay, fine, no one wants me. So I'm going to do it on my own then. Which is why I think it's so important for me to feel self-sufficient. But it isn't working, and I still want someone. Ugh. I'm just being melodramatic I'm sure. My stupid little problems are nothing in comparison with half the people's on the planet. I'm just being selfish and retarded. Anyhoo, I need to get ready to go back to the island.